无话可说

对于你， 我在也不知道该怎么办了。
说我没考虑你的感受，这一切都是你想出来的。
我没说过我不爱你了。我也每做对不起你的事。
为什么你却不相信我？

Its coming back again. Things change.

Still remember the day you go for interns..

You sent me back to my house in ipoh..

Back to those days, we were still friends..

1 and a half year..

You are now preparing to go back there..

Not for interns..

But work there..

The feeling is different..

Although it is just KL..

But still.. knowing that you will leave Kampar somehow makes me feel.. weird..

Sad? No..

Happy? No..

Maybe, in between?

But thank God.. I feel secure..

Im not afraid of loosing you..

Because i put my trust in God.. and in you..

I believe, when you are mine, you will forever be mine..

I think i should be glad..

My boy is going to work hard for future..

Maybe, our future..=)

Despite the physical distance between me and you,

our heart is together, rite?

Maybe this is a good time for both of us to learn..

Focus on God, and trust Him..

The more we get closer to God, the more we experience His blessing in our relationship..

And one day, our future will be wonderful..

Because God mold this relationship..

Our promise, We will be a blessing to others..=)

my keeper =)

Everyone have a keeper. Well, at least one.

No doubt, i would say i have one too. =)

This keeper of mine is not a housekeeper nor garden keeper,

It is my SISTER KEEPER.

(FYI, sister keeper is like a person that you can always tell her about your worries in life, happiness and etc.)

We knew each other since 2 and the half years ago,(if im not mistaken =P)

We are house mates. Our house named "Agape",means unconditional love.

At 1st, she is not really happy when i shifted in. (This is what she told me la.haha)

And ya, i remember the coldness i get from her too. haha..

That time I just started my foundation in Utar, and she is in her Year 2.

After 1 year passed by, (when she came back from her internship)

We started to talk more, compare to last time.

I still remember when I am in my Year 1 sem 1 exam period time, 

I moved in to her room. Haha~ and she welcome me=D 

We start talking more and have pillow talk almost every night!

I tell her all my sadness, happiness and worries. And she gave me good advices.

She did the same too.. We cried together and we laughed together.

There are lots of good memories we have together.

In between, we do argue, but thank God that we learn to forgive each other=)

She is now graduate and went to Singapore,

And I shifted to Harvard.

Both of us are now in different places.

But yet, God's love is still with us.

I thank God that He bless me with this great sister.

I learned alot from her. really alot.

We still contact each other and nothing can stop us from sharing our life process with each other=)

Thank God and

Thank you, Wan Yee!

To my beloved sister keeper, Esther Lau Wan Yee, 

Before you start reading this letter that i write to you, please prepare tissue beside you ya~hahaha!

Wan Yee, I really appreciate what you did for me all along the way we live together.

Seriously, I am really encouraged by you by seeing your life changing.

God is working on you. And dont let it stop, k?

You know what? Everytime when i am angry of something, I will think of what u say.

"Why punish yourself??"

Thanks babe.. 

I know now u r undergoing unemployed situation,

But dont let this to stop you from believing the Lord, k?

God has a great plan for you that u can never imagine!

As what u said to me in the message, "the job is around me."

Praise God! 

He is faithful and just, amen?

Remember, no matter what happen,

You have God, and you have this crazy bunch of people in Hope Kampar waiting for you!^^

Love you so much and miss you oo..

Im waiting to see you wear your "si fang mao" and say " Thank God I am now graduate!"

See you soon in September! pillow talk!^^

Life.

University life goes on.

Its my Year 2 trimester 1.

Well, for me, its really fast. 

2 years gone. Now, 2 more years away from my graduation day.

Day by day, you can't even believe how time passes by.

Agree?

I used to ask Saki, one of my best gal, "Did you realize last semester passed by soooo fast?"

And she agreed.

We are now in Year 2 already.

Still remember the 1st day i step in Utar.

I was excited, *because Im free from home!Lol

I was curious,

I was NOOB,

and I was FRESH.

But blink!

Now im in Year 2.

If u were to ask, "do you enjoy ur university life?"

I will say, yes.

I dont deny, there are lots of time that i feel like giving up because of over flooded stress.

But it made me think, "Worth it?Or not?"

U study from kindergarden to primary school,

From primary to secondary, and now, tertiary. 

All this while, your parents work hard to earn money, hoping to see us wearing the stupid square hat, and holding the scroll in our hands saying, "I am a graduate!!"

So, now, let's see.

Telling yourself that u cant, *if u cant, let me ask you," did anyone use a gun and force u to study?"

Telling yourself that u are stupid,*if u r stupid, you wont be able to study in university,rite?

Telling yourself you are not strong enough to handle stress, *if u are not strong enough, you wont be able to live till now,agree?

My point is, why let our thoughts to control us?

We are the master of ourself. Not the body, not the emotions and thoughts.

Its we, OURSELF.

Still want to give up?=)

ps: i wish the best for you.. 

Sudden Impluse

Never know since when I started to feel scared.

Scared of losing something that is very important to me.

People whom I love.

People whom I care.

Sometimes its just hard.

Hard to let go.

I am selfish.

Our 1 year anniversary!

Time flies~ Its already 1 year!
This is my first time celebrating 1 year anniversary! haha..
Never expected that we can go through this 1 year even though we argue a lot along the days..
But we made it!!
Why am I that happy?
Haha.. For me, it is worth on celebrating every year.
Looking back at the things that we been through together..
Although there are lots of bitterness, but for me,Sweet=)

To my boy,
         I thank God that we had gone through so many things in this 1 year, or i should say 1 year +,but yet we are still together. You know what? You are so special.. Your are the 1st guy whom i still love even though its already 1 year +.. I don't know why, but day by day, the feeling keeps on increase instead of decrease.. My dear, I want to apologize for being so "princess".. I know sometimes I act like a kid, but still, you are so patient.. I remember that there are few times that I throw my temper on you when I'm not in a good mood, but then you still so sayang me.. I also want to say thank you for guiding me through out my life. I learned to be more independent, patient and the most important is, I learned to accept others weaknesses and strength.. I believe that there are more challenges waiting for us as we continue to walk the journey together, but my choice will always be holding your hands and face it together with you.. You are graduating soon, 2 years of testing our love for each other. Even myself find it hard to believe that we can pass through the test.. But, still, let's believe in God that He will help us through all the obstacles.. My choice will always be you. 


Love you..

I thank God for my shepherd.. She taught me about one thing and I will always remember it.
"这世界是没有完美的情人，只有懂得配合对方的情人.那才是幸福的."

Different.

From the moment i read the msg u sent me,
I know that you will never understand me.
Because ur ruler and my ruler is different.
A lot different.

You will forever stand on ur side and judge me.
What i want is just a simple care.
Maybe I'm really wrong. No, im really wrong.
I shouldn't seek for your care.
U r just human.
U can do nothing greater.

I will not be able to understand u either.
Because you will never know what u yourself want.

I understand now.
I wont cry anymore.
Disappointed.
Enough of all the hurting words.
I have feelings.
I'm born not to be hurt.

Dont tell me u r disappointed.
Because this is what you did.
And please dont bring my past to compare.
It happened.
We look forward. Not backward.