Tomorrow,the last day of 2010=)

Time flies very fast!

Tomorrow is the last day of 2010!

So fast.. 1 year lu~~

I still remembered last year's December, me and eu gene theyll went out for countdown^^

This is the picture we took that day=)*we are still frens that time=P

Things are different rite now=)

This year dont know how to celebrate..

In Ipoh rite now.. Most probably will celebrate with mummy^^

Hope that next year will be a great year ahead for all of us!^^

Year 1 sem 3 soon.. Time past reaaallllllyyy fast!

Lord, i want to grow to another level in Christ!^^

Miss u jor...

Just want to say

I MISS EU!!!!!

Waiting..

Its now 9.30pm..

Im waiting for a sister from hope Ipoh to fetch me back to Ipoh from Kampar..

Dont know why..

I Just dont really feel good..

I start to miss you..

Im afraid that everything will change after semester break..

But i also want to believe that there will be miracles happen..

Just now i keep take pictures of us..

Take and take and take..

Because i want to store up more memory about us..

Not because im afraid that we cant take pictures together again, but i just mainly want to store up more memory bout us..

Do not let your heart be trouble.. Trust in me as how i trust my Father..

This verse..Remember k..

Let's go through together..

We may not know what will happen in the future..

But still.. remember what i told u and i will remember urs too..

Time flies~~

Looking back to the post that u had posted in ur blog..

And i realize that time flies..

I still remember the time before you go for ur internship..

We r in ipoh..

U and Hope Kampar bro and sis came to my house for celebrating the year of 2010..

We went out for yum cha.. countdown in greentown..

That time we were still friends..

We love to ejek each other..

The next day, we went for a movie..

Alvin and the chipmunks 2..

After the movie, we went to mcd..

Then, u fetch me back to my house..

Both of us felt so awkward..Hahah..

U expect me to say something when u called me..

But i say i have nothing to say..hahha...

Look back to 12 months ago.. that means 1 year..

Its worth having all the obstacles..

we argued alot.. because sometimes our opinion is diff..our attitude is diff..

Both of us is like from diff world..never understand each other's heart..

But because of all this, we learned alot from it..

We learned on how to endure.. tolerate.. patient..and love..

There r so many things that we go through and i believe there r more to come..

We cant deny that it is really hard to go through all this test..but believe me, we can if v dont give up..

We will never know what will happen in the future..

Never know whether i can still blog about us or not..

But i will never forget the time that we had been through..

And the sparks that we had..

Thanks for always being the reminder..

Reminding me about every single time of my life..

Always remember.. You are not alone..<3

Yesterday i saw one of my friend posted this in facebook..

"The minute you think of giving up, think of the reason why you held on so long."

This post spoke to my heart.. I hope that u will think of this too..

Show me the way..

Now i know.. The more you want something, the more you cant get it..

Its been 8 months.. 8 months..

This precious one had been vf me for 8 months..

But it seems like i have to let it go soon..

I dont know when..but somehow.. i feel that the day is coming soon..

Im really scared..

I want to uphold this to God..

But.. i know it is hard to do so..

I wanted to obey God.. but in the same way..i want to do my will..

Im struggling rite now..

I do not know what to do and how can i do..

Because of the past.. it ruined everything...

But its my fault..My own fault..

I ruined my own life..

Not God.. Not my Family..Not my friends..

ITS ME..

I feel so pathetic right now..

There are no one that i can talk to..

Yea.there is.. but who can feel my feeling besides God..

You know what? Just now when i was lying on my bed, i felt like killing myself..

But i know.. this is not the solution..

There are no solution..

I cant turn to the left because it hurts someone..

I cant turn right because it hurts the other person..

If i walk straight, it seems like a dead end..

If i turn back, i ruin my life again..

How.. what should i do rite now..

It seems like everything that i do is wasted..

whatever i do seems like never came to successful before..

My friends think that im too dependent.. i ruin my friendship..

My family dont really believe me.. i ruin my family trust..

My beloved one suffer because of me.. i ruin my r'ship..

Im really pathetic rite now..

God.. if You were to give me a present for christmas,

Please send me back to 4 years ago so that i can change what i did that is wrong to right..

But i know.. i cant..

Please.. show me a way..

太快了。。

突然发觉原来他快要毕业了。。

看到他拍的毕业照，突然觉得很不开心。。

还有半年，他就要离开这里。。

我呢？还有两年多。。

我们以后还会像现在这样吗？

突然觉得很不舍得。。

如果时间能停止的话。。那就好了。。

时间过的太快了。。我。。有点接受不到。。

Still..Give thanks to the Lord..^^

I was on a phone call vf Eu Gene before i successfully log in to utar portal..

When i was chatting vf him..

I press my lappy..

And found out that i successfully log in to utar portal le..

I faster press in,(expecting that i cnt view the page)

Suddenly, the result pop out..

I viewed my result..

I was very surprise as i scrolled down..

I saw this..

I was shocked when i saw the second column..

It is written there "Intro to adv------F"

I was shocked..

That was the 1st time i get F..

And 1st time i get 2As..

I dont know whether i should be happy or sad..

The 1st respond to Eu Gene is "OMG..I failed"

Both of us stunned for awhile..

Atlast i told Gene that i want to quite down myself 1st..

He hang up the phn..and i started to talk to God..

"God!Why?? Why?? Why i fail??How come??I cant believe that!"

The room remain silence..

I straight away went to facebook and start to ask my friends result..

All of them seems happy and satisfy although they say "pass all only"

U know what? I feel shame..

I felt that im the only one that failed in advertising..

I cnt believe it..

I keep asking God..

should i appeal for remark?

I ask Eu gene, ask my housemate..even ask my facebook friends..

The answer i got is "Maybe u should try" and " maybe u shouldnt,the percentage of success is very low"

I asked so many people..

Ask ask ask ask n ask..

Eu Gene called me..

He asked me what m i doing..

Told him that im asking people's opinion..

Then i ask him,

"should i appeal?What do u think of me getting this kind of result?"

Then he replied,"I think that u did a great job.U failed one but still, ur cgpa can maintain 2.5.Just this sub have sum mistake"

At that moment, I tell myself..God had already bless me...

Eu gene told me to put more effort on study next sem onwards..Ya..i think i should..

I cried..I was so sad and he told me that this is the 1st time he heard me crying that bad..

Ya..i really feel bad..

I feel shame..n feel bad for mummy..

When i quiet down myself..

I give thanks to God..

Because there r so many ppl around me who cares for me..

I shouldnt give up that easily!

And thank God for the good result and i can proceed to next sem..eventhough i got F, but im gonna appeal and pray hard for it..

Never try, never know..

Dont want to waste mummy's money..

Rm100 is better than Rm600..

Hopefully everything will goes well..

ps: to those that have the results that never satisfy ur expectation, learn to give thanks ya!Because, there is always hope=)